February 2012
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you make me happy and you make me sad
i can’t decide if i should stay or leave
i am sorry too
but please know
that i still love you
and my heart is an empty place
and don’t try to change me.
this is what i’ve become.
and i’m sorry if i disappoint.
but only i can change me.
i dont think this is a secret anymore.
but i do hope you dont tell anyone.
I’ve lost myself. I am dead.
There’s no turning back.
At least not for now.
January 2012
I want to be the whole world’s girl. But when I do, I realized, I don’t want it anymore.
When everyone knows my name, but they don’t know me. I am everywhere.
But I am nowhere near somewhere. I’m leaving. I’m done.
so it’s been a crazy night
i’m starting to sober up
and i still miss you, S.
so fuck you.
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coming down after days of living life in a blur
for those times i was away
my feelings fade
now that im back
i’ve missed you more than ever
and this sucks
things to do:
- stay clean
- go to school
- stay clean
i passed by you
im just a ghost
life moves in a blur
sometimes a minute slow
said i need more than 24 hours a day
i figured out how
but when everything’s washed away
life reverts to fast forward
and those stretched hours felt like it was never there
i tried to say something
but my voice fell silent
and time
i have lost
i have lost you
